This is a really strange time for me to be blogging...it's 12:30am, and I'm sitting in my bed, browsing on my iPad as I usually do...then all the sudden...BAM I got a conviction to post this. As I mentioned my last blog post, I only post when I feel the Lord compelling me to, and I really felt compelled to put this out there. Maybe it's so that I will believe it too, but I feel as though The Lord reminded me of a poem my sweet friend Lauren shared with me in college, when it seemed like everyone and their mother was getting their "ring by spring." Don't get me wrong, I was happy for all of my friends who had found the love of their life before they graduated (I even played matchmaker with my best friends Niki and Jordan). I believe that The Lord has someone special for everyone, in his own perfect time. A partner in life that you will be closer to than anyone that you have ever known. Lately I have been thinking a lot about that. Not just about marriage, but the relationship. The day to day, everyday. And how sweet that would be with someone who knows your every fault and loves you, sometimes because of your faults. One morning I was praying about my future husband and began to get a picture of what that relationship would look like based off of my experience and having friends who are married. Every day you wake up and have a partner to do life with and go on adventures with. Someone you tell your deepest...and most ridiculous thoughts to. And someone you share the details of your day with, even the bad or boring parts. But then The Lord made it so clear to me, that he wants to be that first. He wants that other person to be him.
Everyone longs to give themselves completely to someone
To have a deep relationship with another
To be loved thoroughly, and exclusively -
But God, to a Christian says,
I want you to be satisfied, fulfilled and content
With being loved by me alone -
With giving n yourself totally and unreservedly to me-
With having an intensely personal and unique relationship
With me alone.
Discovering that only in me is your satisfaction to be found,
Will you be capable of the best human relationship
That I have planned for you.
I want you to be united with another after you are united with me,
Exclusive of anyone or anything else,
Exclusive if any other desires or longings.
I want you to stop planning, stop wishing,
And allow me to give you the most thrilling plan existing-
One that you cannot imagine.
I want you to have the best,
Please allow me to bring it to you.
You just keep watching me, trusting me -
Keep experiencing the satisfaction that I am
Keep listening and learning the things I tell you.
You just wait.
That's all.
Don't be anxious.
Don't worry.
Don't look around at the things
Others have gotten, or that I've given them.
Don't look at the things y think you want.
You just keep looking off and up to me
Or you will miss what I want to show you.
And then, when you're ready, ill surprise your with a love
Far more wonderful than any you would ever dream of.
You see, until you're ready, and until the one I have for you is ready,
(Even at this moment I am working to have both of you ready at the same time)
Until you are both satisfied exclusively with me a d the life I have prepared for you,
You won't be able to experience the love that exemplifies your relationship with me.
And this is the perfect love.
And dear one, I want you to have the most wonderful love.
I was you to see in the flesh a picture of your relationship with me.
And to enjoy materially and concretely the everlasting beauty, perfection and love,
That I offer you with myself.
Know that's love you utterly.
I am God.
Believe and be satisfied.
-author unknown
God has given me a peace in my heart that there is a time and a season for everything. I believe he wants me to be patient and wait, and at the same time enjoy my time single, and the freedom that comes with it. My hope is that other single young women also find peace knowing those same truths, and that a man will not fulfill their deepest need, no man can. Only God and an intimate personal relationship through his Son Jesus can.
